Friday, November 27, 2009

I am writing this post today with a heavy heart. My dad has passed away peacefully past mid-night on the 25th November. He was holding on to his last breath for my hb who took the urgent flight back from TPE for a business trip. Really thank God that he managed to get a ticket. Everytime this thought came into my mind, i truly know that my dad has loved Ken and us very much.

I am happy and felt the joy as my dad was baptised. He is reborn and is with the Lord in Gloryland. No longer to suffer and endure those earthly pains and medication.

I am thankful for my dad as he chose to come back home on his last stage of life. I have no regrets that i was able to spend quality precious time with him. Like to thank my aunt Alice Khoo for providing the hospital bed. It was truly a God-send.

During my dad's healthier times, he liked to fix things. Any scrap materials in hand, he was able to transform them into his signature master pieces. Dad liked to listen to Jazz music and playing the piano. He was also the chef of the house always trying new recipes to please our picky taste-buds. All these good times will be a memory for my family remember and treasure.

Like to take this time to thank all my auntys, uncles and cousins. Thank you for standing by us all these while. Our heartfelt thanks to everyone present here for ur kind donations and loving thoughts for my father. We thank you.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Coming to the end of Term 4 and school hoildays are arnd the corner. Happy for kids, unfortunately, not for their mummy....its the beginning of my headache!!

Thank God, i am also going on a "school holiday" leave. Going on leave this time is not a rest month, i gotta start packing to vacate my pl b4 CNY...its may sound distance but by looking at the amt of "junk" i have at home, better start early....hiaz haiz

Dad is doing well at home. Sleep most of time. At least his presence at home gives me a sense of comfort. I know he's much happier at home rather than Hospice. Who wants to go there... Had a quarrel wif mum, we thrash things out. She's always so negative regards to her care towards dad, had that crazy idea of sending him to the hospice. *_*
i see things more positively as dad dun give us any problems apart from feeding, clean/ change and medication. All this are daily routine, i am there to assist her. What so tedious abt?? Unlike my late grandma she would call for attention every hour of the day+night, who can tolerate that? Total mental/ physical torture!! Anwy its the past, Grandma went back to the LORD.
RIP mama...We'll always love& remember U.

Planning to watch Christmas Carol in 3D and Fantastic Mr Fox. Simply luv kiddy movies. Bodyworlds @ science centre, making plans to visit.

Today is Friday, end of sch term. Mon onwards, sit back, relax....No work!!
(for the time being....heee!)

Monday, November 16, 2009

A series of events

Dear whoever is reading this post...my last post was like, in May??...OMG!! So many things as happen to me and my family all these months. Human life is really full of surprises and perhaps the ppl 'up there' wanna make fun of us. Nevertheless with such uneventful challengues, this made a family bind togather.

Well good news 1st, I passed driving on 23rd july :) It was my FIRST attempt and i made it! I guess it's a matter of whether u wanna put in effort or not. On the test day, stay humble and smile all the way can liao. I was also blessed with a "ah-gong" like tester. :p Got 10 demirit
pt out of 20. My driving instructors were very nice too. Now we keep in touch tru FB. Nice...

Somewhere in March next year, gonna shift house. Bought a Masionette, mum staying wif us. Hopefully by God's grace, my dad is able to hang on till that time. Read from my last post, i wanted to bring my dad for a body check up...why did'nt i perisist on?? haiz....

The "C" disease really creeps in so rapidly, my dad's prognosis is 6 mths. It came to a shock to my family and me. I was shattered...cried and have many sleepless nights. How i wish i can talk to someone heart to heart. Someone who really feels for my cries and pains...People says i am the stronger one compared to my sis, but again, even a bull needs a rest.

Its no use hovering abt the past and how my dad got the C disease, but to make him feel as comfortable and minimise the pain and agony. He has done so much for the family in his younger days and now he really needs a good rest and recopriate at home. We have decided to let my dad have pallative treatment rather than more chemo or pills. He has suffered so much side-effects already.

I'm gald and apprecaite what the Sinagpore goverment has done for the senior citizens esp on medical issues and care. The subsidies are a great help. Now every weekly, a nurse from hospice care will come and see my dad's overall well being. Thank you nurse Lai Kuan from Tan Tock Seng Hospital. :) U are truly a God send, caring and lend a listening ear to my family esp my mum.

ALLCARE graduation was last friday. It was raining cats & dogs. This year my morale was very low. Got Grace to be MC. thank you deary (Grace) I became the back stage worker. It was less crowdered and less fun as those guys that i wish to see have their commitments elsewhere. Nvamind...After grad, it will be my last week of work. I'll be leaving allcare. Take this time to reflect on myself , to remember all the fun we shared in a little house off Lichi Ave. I'll always remember that someone whom i dearly miss. But glad that things are going well, preaparing to move up to higher educational level and be a good & repectful adult in future to come.

I dunno what will be like in the future but to take things one at a time. Telling myself to be positive and live life happily day by day.